I am sure I have written this before, but I truly believe a child is born with their personality. William was my subsequent-pregnancy. I got pregnant with him a mere 8 weeks after loosing the twins. Unlike previous pregnancies I was not excited about his, not because he wasn’t wanted but because I was resentful of having to go through morning sickness again and terrified he wouldn’t be born alive. It was a very conflicting time in my life. I denied his pregnancy until I was 20 weeks along and I still didn’t celebrate his life until he was safe in my arms.
The last few weeks were the hardest. I was still convinced he would die in utero. As the end neared he was getting bigger and moving less. I made one panicked trip the L&D because he wasn’t moving. I started canceling plans so I could stay home drink a Pepsi and do kick counts. I was a mess.
On July 28th at 39 weeks we decided to induce him. Since it was my 4th delivery and just 11 months since my last delivery I figured it would be fast. Boy, was I wrong. And William hasn’t ceased to surprise me since then. I was in labor for 29-hours. My stubborn little man had his own agenda and it didn’t match mine in the least. He was named for his Great-Grandfather on my husband’s side. We told everyone that there would be no nicknames and that he would go by William, but my father started referring to him as Wild Bill and honestly I can’t think of a more fitting nickname.
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