Tuesday, May 16, 2006

My Mother's Day

I don't usually do diary-like entries on my blog. After all, that's what a diary is for. But I have decided to chronicle my Mother's Day this year. Mostly because of my preggo-brain. But because when June arrives and I begin to think about Father's Day I will be hormonal, uncomfortable, and pregnant. The following things will either be said or thought "you never appreciate me. I do so much for you. You couldn't even give me a decent Mother's Day."

So this blog is to protect my marriage and my sanity.

Preggo Brain

Today is a good day (see all the posts), but lately I have had such difficulty thinking, much less putting my thoughts into language. Just the other day I told my husband to "get the thing, in the thing, by the thing." I finally gave up and just got the 'thing' myself.

So I want to apologize for all the bad blogs or non-existent blogs in the coming weeks. I am about 10 weeks from having this baby and my brain is all downhill from here.

No Pics for You!

I heard it when I got pregnant with my son, "you will never finish his baby book", "you will have no pictures of him", "its amazing how it isn't as exciting with your second".

Its true. I didn't make-up meanings to the coos and aaah he uttered. I just figured he was practicing using his vocal cords. I didn't worry when he didn't walk as early as my daughter, after all he was still in the normal range. And I don't think we have any pictures of him rolling over.

But in regards to pictures, it isn't because you care less. You are just too busy. I find it impossible to manage 2 toddlers, my purse, my pregnant belly, the diaper bag, AND a camera. The only way we get pictures is if a third party is present because they aren't busy child-wrangling. They can take a few snapshots. So, I don't find all those comments to be true. Instead I find myself busier and happier and much more relaxed. Hopefully I will have those memories, because I know I don't have any pictures!

Snow Storm of Diapers

This happened a few weeks ago. On a Saturday. A lazy Saturday.

The kids were playing nicely and quietly in my son's bedroom. I was relieved. I'm pregnant and that meant I could lay on the couch and relax a bit longer, maybe catch a bit of last night's tv shows. They played for about 30 minutes; no fighting, lots of laughing, they were both getting along. Now, you veteran parents know what that means - TROUBLE!

Women are Evil

I talked to my sister-in-law last night. She is 9 weeks pregnant now. When I spoke to her a few weeks ago after her ultrasound and I would ask her about her symptoms she would say, "not too bad, its all worth it in the end". I was so annoyed by her I-had-better-not-complain-attitude that I wrote this blog.

Why Tell Awful Stories?

I lost my twins at 18 weeks due to a twin related condition. In the first few months after my loss I cautioned newly pregnant ladies with twins that they may not stay pregnant with twins and that "something" could happen. I did this for two reasons: I felt like I would have been better prepared if I had known that my risk was SO much higher, and I wanted the mother-to-be to know what the warning signs were and the early treatment - lots of times doctors overlook things or tell us we are worry-warts, espcecially in twin pregnancies.

However, it seems I am not alone. All the time pregnant ladies are being told horror stories of labor and/or pregnancy.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven

By Jody Seilheimer

Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.

I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought,
I saw every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.

Saturday, May 6, 2006

What Makes a Mother?

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.
"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"